Do you think its routine of the same thing over and over? Maybe an inner desire that screams and says, “there has to be more?”
I think I would have liked to study psychology. We are all created so differently. Brains function in different patterns, reactions come in varied ways but at the core, we all desire to love and be loved.
I think much of the world seeks thrills and finding new relationships to bring that deeper More or Love to their lives. Sometimes in addictions or self-distructive ways others try and bury the feelings. (both were me)
Take delight in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
I pray you find More and Love in Jesus.