ponderings

purge and prune

One of the toughest and most rewarding things from 2020 was what I call a major purge. Since all commitments were on hold, it was the perfect time to do more interior projects. Painting walls, replace light fixtures, wallpaper and repair of little things that have bugged me for years. While many were running around for toilet paper, I was going back to the paint counter.

Tempest – oil 8×10

When your house is small and filled, its hard to get to the walls. I knew it would require saying goodbye to “things” no longer needed. The 13-20 years of paper in file drawers seemed to take longer than painting the walls. The paper gator got most and the shredder chewed valiantly through what was needed.

Humor or not – this was when recycling and donations centers were all closed so a pile stared at me for weeks begging to be brought back inside!

It felt as if I deleted a lot of what I felt were some of my best years. God kept reassuring me through it all, that the best is yet to come! Talk about major pruning… I did have some tough days of tears – both of sorrow and of joyful anticipation.

Some great memories and some hard ones but it is freeing to purge, donate and refresh! God’s timing is right once again as I continue to work from home and have peaceful and more spacious rooms to do it from.

I pray that in the changes God brings for you, you can process the emotions as you need. That you will continue in hope as God brings even better as you make room for what He has in store!

“Behold, the former things have come to pass,
And new things I declare;
Before they spring forth I tell you of them.”
Isaiah 42:9 NKJV

ponderings

clarity

In August, I took an online course on CLARITY @The Grove Center for Arts and Media. I’ve read author Joey O’Conner’s blog a bit for several years and it was the perfect timing to refocus for what is now and what is to come.

Where’s Your Focus?

Clarity – the state of being clear.

We are often in confusion and muddy waters in places in our life. Wondering why, what, who or where. In our current world, how can anyone be really clear?

Hanging onto hope is important. Knowing where to place our hope, even more so! It’s not in a building, a president or a police force, its in the Savior.

The world is in a tough spot but I know with certainty that God’s guidance will pull all of us through to a better place. For me it will include creative things that bring hope, love and challenge to others. Since this echos the walk of Jesus, I also find comfort in that hope and purpose.

Last year brought both internal and external hard drive crashes with much of my data, art photos and writings lost or in a mystery code I will have to personally resave each file. Daunting task. Yes, some big moments of mourning how easy it used to be to access. That data will need a lot of help to find clarity and right now, I don’t have the heart to try and rebuild the past. I’m putting my energy and focus on what God has for the future.

He has good plans in store – for me and for you! We may hear talk of the end of the world but until that time – let’s press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of us! We ALL have more to bring to the table and Jesus assures us it’s a table prepared for us even in the presence of our enemies.

Take heart – HE HAS overcome the world!

being yourself, expectations, living in fear, pleasing others, ponderings

To the New Year

I’m finding the end of the year review isn’t always a cheerful process. But it does help you to start the NEW with a good attitude. Somedays I’m finding junk buried from lots of years ago. One that I find hard as a person and an artist is that of pleasing others and trying to make everyone “happy”. You never do no matter what you try and the more you focus on everyone else’s expectations, the less you are just “being yourself”. I think it is that way for most of us.

A book that has really helped me with focus this year is “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young. A daily devotional that talks about our struggles to stay connected to who we really are in Christ and to still function in the chaos of the world.

So I hope that for the upcoming year you too can do some review, some soul searching and most importantly some dreaming. God doesn’t want us to live in fear of this world but in awe of His plans. Here’s to our hope for the future!!! Rich blessings to you!